Loestrin 30 pill and negative mood

I took this pill for 3 years total with a year’s break after the first year of taking it. Finally made my period bearable for the first time in my life. The withdrawal bleed was lighter and much less painful. It made my anxiety worse and I gained around 3 kilos but it was worth it. I’m gutted it is no longer available. I’ve been searching for a suitable alternative for 4 years but have not been successful yet.

I moved to this pill after being on Rigevidon for severe period pain, when I was on Loestrin my skin was a lot clearer, it helped a lot with period pain and I did not notice major mood swings. However since coming off it I realised when I was on it I was a completely muted version of myself, nothing really excited me and I felt like I lost the passion for life. I have seen someone else describe this on here which is interesting. This has really put me off wanting to use hormonal contraceptives but it’s the only thing that helps my bad period pains unfortunately.

Moving to Loestrin 30 from Rigevidon was a huge change, I felt much better on loestrin 30. But after a few months, my moods began to drop again and I felt as though I was a muted version of myself. Issues with my skin, complete loss of sex drive and lack of motivation for life. This experience convinced me to stop using hormonal contraceptives altogether.