Combined pill and lighter periods

Please consider the effects AFTER you stop taking Yaz or Eloine (same pill different brand). I never had acne or even spots my whole life and 4 months after stopping Yaz I got post-pill acne. My whole face is red and scarred and there isn’t a part of it that isn’t swollen and bumpy with cystic acne. If I could show you photos you would immediately think twice about trying an anti-androgen contraceptive like Yaz/eloine. I have tried everything with my derm to cure the acne but I wish I had known before taking yaz that this might happen when I stopped. I’m honestly devastated. It’s now been two years since I stopped yaz..

I essentially started crying almost every day and couldn't fully function like normal because of how low my mood was. I took it for bad period cramps and it definitely helped with this but had to get off it because of the effect on my mood

TW: suicidality i have ADHD/PMDD and was also on 50 mg spiro intermittently (i kept forgetting to take it lol). i noticed that the brand was much better than generic at first, but over time i started to become extremely emotionally numb/had a complete loss in sex drive (to the point i thought i was ace) and suicidality due to a complete state of apathy for life. i was just like emotionally disconnected/distant from myself if that makes any sense? like i was a passenger in my own body? i realized i needed to get off once i started to only feel alive or "myself" on the 3-4 days i didn't take the active pills (improved focus, energy, motivation, no depression/anxiety, etc). spiro also messed w my moods in the same way (numb, "robotic," tremendous brain fog, etc), but they both helped my skin ig?