Combined pill and a latex allergy

TW: suicidality i have ADHD/PMDD and was also on 50 mg spiro intermittently (i kept forgetting to take it lol). i noticed that the brand was much better than generic at first, but over time i started to become extremely emotionally numb/had a complete loss in sex drive (to the point i thought i was ace) and suicidality due to a complete state of apathy for life. i was just like emotionally disconnected/distant from myself if that makes any sense? like i was a passenger in my own body? i realized i needed to get off once i started to only feel alive or "myself" on the 3-4 days i didn't take the active pills (improved focus, energy, motivation, no depression/anxiety, etc). spiro also messed w my moods in the same way (numb, "robotic," tremendous brain fog, etc), but they both helped my skin ig?

main thing for me was the super low sex drive. filling this out, interested to also see sweating a lot as an option. As I do sweat a lot, very easily so very interested (and hope) that is a side effect as looking to change/come off.

While it was brilliant to stop my period, I struggled with the moodiness and lack of sex drive. I wasn’t motivated to exercise, while I loved going from a B cup to a DD cup the rest of my body grew too. Headaches and migraines frequently which isn’t ideal either.